Finally!!

I got to talk to my DH last night, and it was wonderful. He called at 0230 my time, which was around 1115 his time. It was just a quick conversation to let me know that he was safe and to tell everyone that he loved them. He also told me that he doesn't have his computer yet. I hope he gets it soon. I think it will be easier for us to talk then.

It's amazing how much a two minute conversation turned my world around. Not only do I have the motivation to do things now, but I'm in such a happy place. I can't wait until the next conversation. I hope everyone has a great Hump Day! Mine is going to be super busy getting everything ready for our bulk trash pickup tomorrow. It's getting closer and closer to the big move!

Feeling Kind Of Blah...

It seems to be a recurring theme among the blogs that I've read. It seems everybody is having a blah moment lately. I guess it's understandable because (at least where I am) we are in between seasons. It's not really spring, but it's not really winter. This week, we have a chance of snow tomorrow and a high of 80 on Saturday. I am very grateful, and I really hope it does get up to 80.

Another reason I think I am feeling blah is because I haven't talked to DH in three days. I knew on Saturday when I talked to him that it would be a little while before we got to again. I guess I just didn't realize the affect not talking to him would have on me. I know that it is something that I will get used to, but in all honesty I think this is the longest I've ever been without talking to him in the almost four years we have been together. It's crazy to even think that! I know that when I do get to talk to him, I will appreciate it even more. I can't wait to hear his voice again!

I hope everyone is having a great week!

Thank you

I just wanted to do a quick blog to say thank you. I realize that I am still new to the milspouse blogging community, but I couldn't feel more welcome and at home. Since the start of my blog, I have had nothing but support and encouragement. I am so grateful for everyone and everything that has been said. I know that the next year is not going to be easy, but I know that I will have support on my hardest days just by coming to this community and reading other blogs. I hope that one day I will be able to support and encourage someone as you all have done with me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart!

Deployment

My Love! Isn't he handsome?!?

As it has been for the past little while, DH and I have been spending lots of time together. Before he left, we were laying on the couch together. He was playing Final Fantasy (which he beat before he left) and I was surfing the internet. I don't know why, but when he beat the game I started crying. It wasn't an "I can't breathe" kind of cry, but it was enough to make my eyes puffy this morning. I had a hard time stopping, but I did. I didn't think I would fall asleep last night, but I did. I didn't think I would be able to drive him to where I had to drop him off, but I could and I did. I didn't think that I would be able to walk away from him and know that I wouldn't see him in person for at least a few months, but I did. I'm not saying it wasn't hard, because it was. I'm saying I did it! I am so proud of myself, and I didnt realize how strong I was until it was my only option.


A couple of days ago, DH deployed. I dropped him off, and had time to come home, change and drive back. I could have stayed for a while, but I think the longer I would have stayed the harder it would have been to leave. So I stayed around for just a bit. It was really hard to watch him walk away from me, and I did cry when he walked away. Luckily, I have gotten to talk to him since the time I left until when his plane was about to take off. I'm really nervous and scared and have been praying a lot for him, everybody going with him and all of our troops.

Friday

I just wanted to say TGIF to all of the workers out there! I hope everyone has a great weekend! Does anybody have any plans? My plans are to finish packing and start cleaning the house. I'm getting ready to move back home! I can't wait for warm weather, especially since it's only going to be in the 20s here today!

Dog Tags

I've been thinking since I've found out that DH is getting deployed about dog tags. I've heard that some spouses wear them while their significant other is deployed, and I've read that some don't. I've always wondered where it came from for the spouse to wear the dog tag. I know that I will be wearing them while DH is deployed, and it will also have his wedding ring on it. His ring is tungsten, and they don't have anything that will cut it off if that needed to happen so he would have to lose his finger. We decided together that he would leave it here, and I would wear it on the dog tags that I would wear while he is deployed. So my question is: do you wear dog tags when your spouse is deployed? Why or why not?

I really...

don't have anything to say. I have so much on my mind, but OPSEC refuses to let me get it all out in the open. I will be able to one day, but for right now I am stuck with my own thoughts. I guess this is a good time for me to go and get the journal that I want to start for DH when he leaves. Has anybody had a journal for when your spouse was deployed? I want to write in it at least once a day. It will probably be just trivial things mostly, but some entries will probably have a lot of emotion behind them. Since this is my first deployment, I don't know what kind of emotions I will have in the year that follows. I will probably experience every single emotion there is.

I hope everybody has a great Wednesday!

Ultimate Blog Party 2010

This sounds like a load of fun! This will be my first year, and I can't wait to participate!

Busy, busy, busy

Wow! It has been a busy few days! DH and I picked up my sisters on Saturday, and relaxed on Saturday night. Yesterday, we packed everything in the house that we would not need before the deployment and after until I move home. My house looks crazy with all of the Army gear and boxes laying around. I'm so grateful that April and Brandy could come up here to help. It took a big stress off of me, and right now that was something I needed. DH and I are good. We are spending every moment we can together! I'm loving it!

I'm so ready for warm weather! I hope it's warm when I get back home, because I'm looking forward buying and wearing some flip flops. I wish I could live in a place where I could wear them all of the time.

I hope everyone has a great Monday!

It's been a few days...

I realize that I haven't updated in a few days. With the deployment coming up soon, everything ceases as soon as my DH walks through the front door. I've been trying to pack some, and I have got a little done. When I say little, I mean VERY little. I have one box, and half of another one packed. All I can focus on right now is a date that's in the very near future. I try to be strong, but it's getting harder and harder every day. My emotions are all over the place, and it's making me physically sick to my stomach. I'm just ready for it to be over with. I'm exhausted and I'm not going to get the rest I need until everything is over with. I hate to be this way, but I'm sure a lot of you understand how it is. The "hurry up and wait" kills.

DH got off early yesterday, and then had a recall formation. Ugh, seriously?!? He's deploying soon, so you let him off early just to call him back in not even a full hour later and keep him for an extra hour? That's ridiculous! Then DH told me that they probably wouldn't get off early again before the deployment because it took way to long for everybody to make it to the recall formation.

I have so much to do, and it's really hard for me to get motivated right now! I hope the motivation comes soon. Have a great day!

Hmm...

What can I say? This has been such a relaxing weekend. We've hardly done a thing! Today, we finally got out of the house. We haven't been out of the house since Friday. We went to get DH a haircut, and then we went to PetCo to get Tanks toenails trimmed. And that's about the extent of what we've done today. We have just been relaxing and enjoying our time together. The deployment date is fast approaching, and some days I feel like I am ready. Other days, I feel like I am going to fall apart. It's a vicious cycle. I really think that I'm just ready to get it over and done with. All of the waiting is so hard, and I'm exhausted all of the time.

In other news, I've been thinking about becoming a vegetarian. DH says he doesn't care as long as he can still have meat. I'm doing some research right now to see if being a vegetarian does anything to help with the PCOS. I haven't really found anything that says right out that it helps, but then again I just started doing the research. Is anybody else a vegetarian? When I get back home, I'm going to see about going to a nutritionist to help me make sure that I get all of the vitamins and essentials that I will need. I'm looking forward to it!

Happy Monday!

I love Four Days!

DH has a four day this weekend! I'm so grateful for this time, especially with the deployment really looming over us now. We probably won't do much this weekend, but just spending time together is enough for me. The closer it gets, the more emotional I get. I try to be strong while DH is around, but the breakdown is going to come soon. I can feel it. I would like for it to happen while he is at work, but I don't know if it will work out that way. Either way, breaking down is not going to change what's happening. So I will break down when I do, pick up the pieces and carry on. It's what we are suppose to do, right?

Yesterday, DH and I went bowling with his company. I won against him on the first game, and he won the second. We had a lot of fun, I just wish I had taken some pictures. Oh well, I have the weekend to do that!! Today, I got two new books and I already finished the first one. I couldn't help it; it was such a good book!! (Susan Wiggs - The Summer Hideaway) Does anybody have any good recommendations for books? I'm up for anything except scary. I would have nightmares, no joke!

Anyway, I hope everyone has a great weekend! Hug your spouse for an extra minute!

My Boys... for now!

Shadow

Tank   

Can we say relaxed? Yes, my dog has a blanket. He goes crazy without it! We have to distract him so I can take it away from him and wash it every once in a while!!

Getting things done...

This morning, I went and had the oil changed on one of our vehicles. Next week, I get the oil changed on the other one. I'm getting ready for the big drive back home after DH leaves for his deployment. Every single day it is becoming more and more real. Today, DH is having a layout of his packing list. I don't know if everybody does this, but his company is doing it. He has a lot of stuff packed and it all fits; I just don't understand why they are going to make him unpack and repack everything. These are grown people so shouldn't you be able to take their word for it that everything is packed? Whatever, I guess. It is what it is.

The past couple of weeks I've had trouble falling asleep. I think my mind thinks of everything but the fact that in a month or so, I will be sleeping by myself every night. It's getting to where it drives me crazy! I start thinking about Tank, our black Lab, and then it goes to the neighbor's dog and then the neighbor. From there it can go anywhere from watching tv and thinking this person is to skinny to what I need to buy while DH is gone. It doesn't seem like it stops until I'm so exhausted that I just fall asleep. I'm sure that I will get over it, but I hope it's sooner rather than later. I'm tired, and I'm thinking I'm going to take a nap today!

I hope everyone has a great day!

The weekend and more...

DH and I had a great weekend together. DH got off early on Friday, and we ran some errands. After that, we went to the place that is sponsering his company for dinner and drinks. Since DH will be deploying soon, he decided to have a good time. We finally left that place around 10 or 1030 Friday night, and went to a couple of bars in town. (FYI: Everybody that went had a DD, and I was one of them!) We finally got home around 230am on Saturday morning. Needless to say, we spend most of Saturday either asleep or laying on the couch watching Ghost Adventures on the Travel Channel. Yesterday, we did a little cleaning and I went and pick up a few things from the commissary. Once that was finished, we just relaxed and watched some basketball games. Go Celtics and Magic!! They were both mostly good games.

DH did some packing also this weekend. As it gets closer and closer to his deployment date, the more and more my nerves are bundling up. I am trying to be strong, and I know I can't be the whole time and DH knows that I can't be. It doesn't make it any easier that we are actually talking about what he wants to know while he's gone, setting up the computers so we can see each other and everything else that goes along with a deployment. Some days I don't even think about the deployment, and some days it's all I think about. I am to the point where I want him gone, just so we can get it over with. It's a black cloud that just keeps hanging over us, and I want the sun back! Is that too much to ask for?

The moving company just came to get an estimate on how much it will cost to pack our stuff. I'm hoping that when I get the actual price it won't be too expensive and I can do that. I'm so ready for all of this to be over with. It's starting to weigh me down, and I want to be free again. Well, as free as I can be with a husband deployed! I'm so having a spa day when I get back home. That gives me one thing to look forward to after my husband is deployed!

I hope everyone had a great weekend!

Getting to Know Us...

I got this from here who says that she stole it from another blog!


Getting to Know US


1. What are your middle names? LeAnn; DH's middle name is Allen

2. How long have you been together? We have been together for almost 4 years (5/9/06) and married almost 3 (5/12/07).

3. How long did you know each other before you started dating? I think it was about three months.

4. Who asked who out? DH asked me out.

5. How old are each of you? We are both 27. My birthday is in August, and his is in October. Yes, I am older by less than three months and he drives me crazy during that time!!

6. Did you go to the same school? No.

7. Are you from the same home town? No, they are about 20 miles apart.

8. Who is the smartest? I would say he is, but I think it would depend on the subject.

9. Who majored in what? DH is going to be majoring in being a physician assistant, and I've been working on Medical Transcription. I've already finished Medical Billing and Coding; I just have to take the test to get certified.

10. Who is the most sensitive? This one is a no brainer: me, most definitely!

11. Where is the furthest you two have traveled together as a couple? In the same car, we traveled from Alabama to Colorado. In two seperate cars, we went from Colorado to New York.

12. Who has the worst temper? DH, definitely.

13. How many children do you want? I want three, but since I haven't had one yet that number may change.

14. Who does the cooking? We usually cook together.

15. Who is more social? DH. He is a big talker. I am pretty shy until you get to know me.

16. Who is the neat freak? DH!

17. Who is the most stubborn? Depends on what it's about, but the majority of the time DH is.

18. Who wakes up earlier? DH. All the time, even if he can sleep in.

19. Where was your first date? Applebee's

20. Who has the bigger family? We both have two siblings each.

22. How do you spend the holidays? We have had holidays where it's just the two of us, and holidays where it's the whole family.

23. Who is more jealous? Neither.

24. How long did it take to get serious? Probably about a month.

25. Who eats more? DH, but he does PT and then works out on his own.

26. What do you do for a living? I'm going to school for Medical Transcription.

27. Who does the laundry? Me

28. Who's better with the computer? DH. I don't know what I'm going to do if my computer breaks while he is deployed.

29. Who drives when you are together? It depends. Sometimes I do more driving, and sometimes he does more driving.

Quiet Day

It has been a pretty quiet day around the house. DH was suppose to get off at 1300 (1pm), and he got off at 1500 (3pm). I wish one day that he would tell me what time he is getting off, and actually get off at that time! But, it's the Army and they do with him what they want.

We did get to go and get the Special Power of Attorney's that we need, but I just remember that we forgot one! I'm going to have to send him back to the Legal Office. He's probably not going to be very happy with me, but when we went today we didn't have to wait that long. He will be fine to go again, that is... if they let him go.

I wanted to go through my clothes today, but I have yet. I may still go through them sometime tonight, since I did have a nap today! Other than that, I haven't really done anything today. I tried to do a little research on what doctor I should go to when I get back home for my PCOS, but I can't find one that's in my general area. I don't want to drive for an hour and a half just to go to the doctor. If I have to, I will, but I would like to find somebody in my general area. Speaking of which, that is one of the things I don't like about moving around with the Army. I hate having to find and get to know new doctors, dentists, hair stylists, etc. I guess if that's all I have to complain about then life is pretty good! Well, that's it from me today. I hope everyone had a great day!

I have so much to do...

and I feel like there is hardly any time to do it in. However, I've made my lists and I am marking things off, so I am making progress. It will all get done in time. Today, I made an appointment to get the final inspection done on the house. Since we live on post and I'm going home while DH is deployed, we are giving up our house. This way, we can save more money with the BAH (Basic Allowance of Housing) that we are getting. Plus, I think it will be easier on me to be around family while my DH is gone. Anyway, that appointment is made, and I made an appointment with a place to see how much they would charge to pack my house. I am hoping that it's not going to be too much, because having somebody else pack it will take so much stress off of me! I'm thinking that it won't be too bad since I'm getting rid of and donating a lot of stuff. After everything that I'm doing away with, we will have a washer and dryer, the living room, the bedroom, and a dining room table... along with a few decorative items that are currently on our walls.

Ah, the progress I am making on my list makes me feel productive! I hope that everyone does something today that makes them feel productive. Have a great day!

It's March!

It's hard to believe that we are already in the third month of the year. It seems like just yesterday my DH (dear husband) and I were celebrating New Years Eve. I can hardly wrap my head around the fact that two months of the year have already gone. It seems like time goes by so much faster as an adult than as a child. I can only imagine how much faster it is going to go by when we have kids of our own!

March means a lot of things to me this year. It's the month I say goodbye to my husband for a year. It's the month that I have to prepare to move myself, our dog and cat without my husband. It's seeing commercials on television and saying 'my husband will be gone with this happens, or that movie comes out.' It's not an easy month for me, but I am going to be strong and get through it. Many, many people have been in my shoes before, and many, many people will stand in them soon. I could be standing in them again someday, especially since the plan is for DH to retire from the Army. I can't believe that it gets any easier, no matter how many deployments we go through. I am going to make the most of this deployment. I want to try new things, and maybe find more of myself that hasn't been uncovered yet. I hope that you will join me on my journey. I may not post everyday, but I will post as often as I can.

I hope everyone has a great day!