My Love! Isn't he handsome?!?
As it has been for the past little while, DH and I have been spending lots of time together. Before he left, we were laying on the couch together. He was playing Final Fantasy (which he beat before he left) and I was surfing the internet. I don't know why, but when he beat the game I started crying. It wasn't an "I can't breathe" kind of cry, but it was enough to make my eyes puffy this morning. I had a hard time stopping, but I did. I didn't think I would fall asleep last night, but I did. I didn't think I would be able to drive him to where I had to drop him off, but I could and I did. I didn't think that I would be able to walk away from him and know that I wouldn't see him in person for at least a few months, but I did. I'm not saying it wasn't hard, because it was. I'm saying I did it! I am so proud of myself, and I didnt realize how strong I was until it was my only option.
A couple of days ago, DH deployed. I dropped him off, and had time to come home, change and drive back. I could have stayed for a while, but I think the longer I would have stayed the harder it would have been to leave. So I stayed around for just a bit. It was really hard to watch him walk away from me, and I did cry when he walked away. Luckily, I have gotten to talk to him since the time I left until when his plane was about to take off. I'm really nervous and scared and have been praying a lot for him, everybody going with him and all of our troops.