27 March 2010

Deployment

My Love! Isn't he handsome?!?


As it has been for the past little while, DH and I have been spending lots of time together. Before he left, we were laying on the couch together. He was playing Final Fantasy (which he beat before he left) and I was surfing the internet. I don't know why, but when he beat the game I started crying. It wasn't an "I can't breathe" kind of cry, but it was enough to make my eyes puffy this morning. I had a hard time stopping, but I did. I didn't think I would fall asleep last night, but I did. I didn't think I would be able to drive him to where I had to drop him off, but I could and I did. I didn't think that I would be able to walk away from him and know that I wouldn't see him in person for at least a few months, but I did. I'm not saying it wasn't hard, because it was. I'm saying I did it! I am so proud of myself, and I didnt realize how strong I was until it was my only option.


A couple of days ago, DH deployed. I dropped him off, and had time to come home, change and drive back. I could have stayed for a while, but I think the longer I would have stayed the harder it would have been to leave. So I stayed around for just a bit. It was really hard to watch him walk away from me, and I did cry when he walked away. Luckily, I have gotten to talk to him since the time I left until when his plane was about to take off. I'm really nervous and scared and have been praying a lot for him, everybody going with him and all of our troops.

9 comments:

Expat Girl said...

So proud of you! I think we can all find the strength in us to get through this which surprises most of us- I definitely didnt think I could do it and yet time is flying by

MommyTaco said...

Hugs for you, girl! I'm proud of you and pray that the time goes fast until you're reunited. You have a wealth of support here from so many others who are going through the same, myself included. While our experiences & hard times may be different, we are here for you! Pass my thanks on to your love for his service to our country and may God bless and keep BOTH of you!

Julie the Army Wife said...

*hugs* to you. The start is the worst. I took don't like to hang around too much when they have to deploy.

Kathryn said...

I'm so sorry! It sounds like you are doing well considering. I hope that he makes it there safe, and that the time will fly by for you guys.

Lindsey said...

I am so proud of you for handling this so well. This is so hard, and there is no advice I can give you to make it any easier, but I can tell you that I am right there with you. I read your post twice and felt like I had written it myself. Keep your chin up, we can do this!

The Perfect Trio said...

You'll do great!!!

I don't ever stick around. I just drop him off...it's easier for him. and me...

**hugs**

HellcatBetty said...

Sending you hugs! You're a strong lady, you can do this. And for the moments when you can't do it alone, we're here :)

Southern Belle said...

Big hugs for you, girl!! We're all here for you when/if you need us :)
~Bethany

Paula said...

Oh geez, this is the hardest thing ever. I'm sorry you had to do it, but happy for you that your time to count down has started. Those first few weeks are hard. I always tell people, give yourself a few days to wallow, then get up and get on with it. We're all here to support you!